It sickens me to the pits of my stomach that some people could be so nasty. I used to be extremely fat in school and I'm also 6'0. Those two things were a bad combination and I was such an easy target. Fair enough, I have lost weight, but I still get stared at and shouted at almost every single time I go out. It sometimes make me want to hide away in my room and never come out. I don't give up in the end. I always just walk with my head held high and give them a smart-arse anwer. I also have black hair and dress differently to most people around me. Why do people have to be such cunts? Why can't they just keep their noses out of my fucking affairs? I think that short men give me abuse because they are jealous and bitter.....and extremely repulsive to look at most of the time.
I'm confused about the way I look 99.999999999% of the time. I have a very sweet, caring boyfriend who think's I'm the most beautiful girl in the world but it doesn't sink in at all. I blame school for all my problems. I'm 21 years old and it still effects me to this day. I just don't really know what to do about it.
I have nothing but utter hatred for most of the people on this planet. I just want to rip their faces off and kick them several thousand times in the head. I want to make them suffer like how I was made to suffer. Actually, they don't even deserve death, just a damn good trashing with a cricket bat.